athimblefulofbeauty:

Sia - Breathe Me

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there’s no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I’m needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I’ve lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I’m needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I’m needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Just started tracking “South Carolina” as a tag…

Charleston, Charleston, Myrtle Beach, Charleston, Charleston…

Why can’t the Midlands get any love?!

That’s what I’ve been attempting to do for the last couple of weeks.

I haven’t written anything, because everytime I tried to, it came out negative and discouraged. And I didn’t want to write so negatively.

Herein lies the problem.

Everyone at some point feels down. And it’s ok, it’s normal. It’s good to get that negativity out. Some people talk about it, some people blog about it, etc.. But when I feel down and depressed, I tend to ball that up as much as I can, until there is a breaking point. I hold in the negativity and keep it to myself (denial, anyone?). Put on that happy face. Unfortunately that happy face can only stay happy for so long until it starts to crack a little.

I think it started with my birthday. Not to say that it wasn’t a good one. Completely the opposite actually. But my expectations of where I would be at 25 do not match the reality of where I am at 25. So I was experiencing some dissonance.

Rational Emily kept saying “It’s ok to adjust your expectations and face facts that you aren’t where you ‘want’ to be, but you are where you need to be.”

Irrational Emily, meanwhile, was nagging “Looks like you’re not going to get there. You’re still in school and living at home. Shouldn’t you be more independent by now?”

Well fuck you, irrational Emily.

I took two years off before going back to school. I didn’t know if I wanted to pursue my MSW first or if I wanted to join the Peace Corp or another missionary service agency. Ultimately I took the path to continue my education, and made the decision to pay for it myself without financial assistance. So I’ve had to sacrifice some independence. I think it will be worth it. I think it will pay off. I just have to keep reminding myself of that.

A lot has happened in the last few weeks. Got my grades back (still holding down that 4.0), went camping, and met the newest member of my family. My younger cousin had her baby boy, and he is just perfect. It’s bizarre to know that my baby cousin is a mother.

Less than a year from now I will have graduated as (hopefully) an LMSW. I’m on the “downward spiral,” although I think this will be the most challenging year of my MSW. I’m an Organizations/Communities concentration, and I know there is a lot I’m going to have to learn, as I’ve been mostly involved in the families and individuals part of social work. But I’m excited. Nervous and excited.

But for now, I’ll enjoy my summer. Whatever it may bring.

Totally pronounced this as “Es-cape” like Dory did in Finding Nemo.

tastefullyoffensive:

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This is me. All day, everyday.

Campin’

humansofnewyork:

Not sure that I’ve ever been so honored to introduce someone as I am right now.

Gac Filipaj is a refugee from the former Yugoslavia. For the past twelve years, he has worked as a janitor for Columbia University.  His job title is “Heavy Cleaner,” which includes emptying the trash and cleaning the toilets. 

During this time, he worked until 11pm every night during the week.  After his shift concluded, he would start studying.  This weekend, after twelve years of study, Gac graduated from Columbia University with a Classics degree.  Rarely have so many qualities I admire been wrapped up in a single person.

Love this.

stfuconservatives:

nextyearsgirl:

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ethiopienne:

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14kgoldnyc:

sanityscraps:

goldenheartedrose:

soultired:

goldenheartedrose:

inflateablefilth:

nothingaboutus-withoutus:

artemispotter:

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This is an enormous chain and I’m sorry, but I need to say this:

The laws in the Old Testament were set forth by god as the rules the Hebrews needed to follow in order to be righteous, to atone for the sin of Adam and Eve and to be able to get into Heaven. That is also why they were required to make sacrifices, because it was part of the appeasement for Original Sin.

According to Christian theology, when Jesus came from Heaven, it was for the express purpose of sacrificing himself on the cross so that our sins may be forgiven. His sacrifice was supposed to be the ultimate act that would free us from the former laws and regulations and allow us to enter Heaven by acting in his image. That is why he said “it is finished” when he died on the cross. That is why Christians don’t have to circumcise their sons (god’s covenant with Jacob), that is why they don’t have to perform animal sacrifice, or grow out their forelocks, or follow any of the other laws of Leviticus.

When you quote Leviticus as god’s law and say they are rules we must follow because they are what god or Jesus wants us to do, what you are really saying, as a Christian, is that Christ’s sacrifice on the cross was invalid. He died in vain because you believe we are still beholden to the old laws. That is what you, a self-professed good Christian, are saying to your god and his son, that their plan for your salvation wasn’t good enough for you.

So maybe actually read the thing before you start quoting it, because the implications of your actions go a lot deeper than you think.

/An atheist who understands Christian theology better than Bible-thumpers do.

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(mic drop)